HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Happy birthday, Keena! Thank you so much for everything you do for me. You're the best sister ever and I wish I could be there with you, but I'm looking forward to seeing you on Saturday. Also, thanks for having children, because I really like them.

nooooooo. make it stop.

I'm so not ready. And Maddie is gone. And Coleman and Jeremy are gone, and even though they'll be back for commencement, I miss them already. And Andrew and Hillary are leaving in the morning. So sad. There's been a lot of tears already. Pam watched the train wreck when I said goodbye to Maddie, and was like "man, I don't know how you're going to handle Sunday." Neither do I. I also had my last ever class with Dr. Twombly today. After 42 credits and hours in his office, that was rough.

What's left of my floor from freshman year.

Lauren, Kayleigh, and Amanda.

Me and my best friend.

The core group of us from Fall 2005 (Shallon, me, Emily, Kayleigh), plus Glenys.

Look who I found! Jeremy, don't go to Spain. Sam, you live in Brooklyn. I'll see you.

Co-tyrants. Stalin and Hitler.

Hillary and Maddie, 2/4s of my favorite juniors!

Me and Coleman. We actually were never friends before this term, which is tragic, but I'm really glad we met.

Kayleigh ate all of the chips. And got crumbs on her face

The battle wound!

How our nights end. DIS YO FACE????

Do you hear that whistle wail? I think the end is coming in...

...and I'm a whole lot worse than well, but I'm determined to slip this skin.

The freshmen year crew during the last ever BK Lounge (Keith and Billy's radio show, which we've all been hanging out at since 2005). It was a sad night for all of us.

Shallon, Kate, and Kayleigh. I love these girls...

...and these boys (Luke and Keith)...

...And these girls (Tor and Kayleigh)...

But mostly, I love this girl.

So, time is winding down, and I'm not ready. At all. I'm ready for summer vacation. I'm not ready to not come back. I'll miss living with Kayleigh, mostly because of times like this...

Just so you know,

If your name isn't Jeremy, Coleman, Maddie, Jenny, or Kayleigh, I'm probably infuriated with you right now.

1. Do not call me names behind my back. Especially when said names are grossly inaccurate.
2. Do not treat people like shit. Not me, just people in general. Especially when I have to deal with the fallout from it.
3. Do not treat me like your students.
4. Do not use me as your messenger. Kayleigh and I are two separate entities. If you have a problem with her, take it up with her, not me.
5. Don't talk about people behind their back when you don't know them.
6. Don't be mean, and don't judge me.
7. Okay, really? Her?
8. Mom jokes about a proverbial mother figure=funny. Necrophilia jokes=totally and completely unacceptable. I'm severely holding that against you forever and ever. You know better.

Furthermore, just because I have more of a future than most of you because I'm going to grad school and you're all facing the job market, does not mean that a.) I don't have legitimate worries about things like rent, and bills, and finding a job, and b.) that I'm not allowed to say anything about being worried about those things. We're all in the same boat, I'm just paying a lot of money to be in it, and coming off of the boat with a fancy degree. Stop acting like it's going to be smooth sailing for me from now on. It's not, and you all have the option of moving home. I can't do that. I can't commute four hours per day.

Why is everyone insane? We're supposed to have an amazing 10 days, and not be acting like we're in high school. I'm so ready to put all of this bullshit behind us and only see you all once every five years. Unless your name is listed above. Then I will miss you.

I wish it was still Friday night. If this Bruce withdrawal lasts until October, I'm going to have a serious problem. I literally just want to lay in bed and listen to Brucelegs (bootlegs) on my iPod.

On the plus side, I have cute dresses for senior week.

On the downside, it's 4:15am and I have yet to attempt sleep.

Bruce!

More to come later when I'm not exhausted and feeling like I've been hit by a bus, but here's a picture I took.
Crappy cell phone quality, but I was that close to him. Let's just say I was near the stage.

When College Kids Get Bored

These are all old, from March or so, but I love them. Amanda finally just posted them on Facebook last night. We like playgrounds.

omgtomorrow!

For Old Time's Sake

May Days 2006.

May Days 2009.

Sometimes, I think we haven't changed a bit. Sometimes, I think we look completely different.

May Days

A little pre-dance fun.

Me and my lovely roommate.

Shallon, Kayleigh, Me

Oh hey, hero.

The gang after the dance.

Am I happy with my dress/how I looked? Yes. Did I have a good day on Friday? Yes. Did I have fun at the dance? Ehhhhh... Did I have fun after the dance? No.

Just so you all know...

That's my dress.

Some Things I've Been Doing

I know most of my entries lately have been incoherent grumblings, with minimal positivity and clues regarding what I've been up to, other than hating certain people and life in general. All in all though, the term hasn't been that bad. So, here's some updates as to what is going on with me. And as you can see, my hair is pretty much back to normal after the incident.

Enjoy the gorgeous 90 degree days by going to parks, lying out in the sun, getting sunburned..

And enjoying nights with my friends.

And Senior Soiree, black and gold themed. Not a good night in my life, but what can you do? Yikes. Talk about shit hitting the fan.

Class is going well, minus the fact that I'm completely surrounded by idiots. It's fine, because Jeremy, Coleman, Luke, and I make fun of them. All of them.

My social life has been fantastic, minus the drama. I've hung out with A TON of different people, made new friends, done stuff most nights, had a few great trips to Rochester, and taken over 150 pictures since I've been back. And tonight I figured out how to get YouTube videos to my iPod.

I sleep like shit these days. I was actually tired when I got home tonight, but then I realized that I had no clean clothes whatsoever, so I'm waiting for my laundry to be finished. I'm going to put it in the dryer and go to bed.

May Days/Fearless Friday coming up. I'm relatively excited, and hoping it stays drama free. I mean, he and I are mostly normal and fine, but on nights like May Days, anything can happen, so I'm a little nervous. I have a cute dress though. It's black. Pretty plain, but I got some fake pink flowers for my hair to spruce it up and add color, and I think it will look nice. I'm not really a bright colors person. And I think that dress will be well-worth the $20, since it's casual enough that there will be a variety of occasions that I can wear it for. I have to go to you-know-who's before and take pictures, since he's grovelling at my feet right now (haha love it). So anyway, get excited for pictures.

Weather Report

A shitstorm is expected in 3 minutes.

Deep breaths.

Now you just say "oh romeo? yeah, you know I used to have a scene with him."

I have seen the writing on the wall.
Don't think I need anything at all
All in all, it was all just bricks in the wall.

So I feel like crap about the entire situation. But I have really really good friends that have my back, to the point where I almost feel bad for him because I know he got chewed out repeatedly this weekend. Whatever, he deserves it. And now I'm pretty sure he's ignoring me. I just like how I'm 450 miles away, and still creating drama. I think he and I probably need to talk, but I really don't want to talk to him right now.

Saturday was amazing though. It was nice to spend some time with Keena, and obviously it was nice seeing Spring Awakening again and sharing something with her that really means a lot to me. I missed some of the old cast, mainly Blake, Socha, and Emily Kinney, but I really enjoyed the production and everyone was fantastic. I LOVE Kimiko Glenn and Andy Mientus. It was also nice to see the nephews, and I can't believe how cute they are.

How can you look at me as if I was just another one of your deals?

grumble.

It's 3am. I haven't sleep yet. I'm leaving in 2 hours. I was ready for bed at like, 12:30, then I had to fix everyone's (Keith, Kayleigh, Hillary) lives, even though I can't fix my own. Now I'm hungry, and I'm tired, but I'm also upset and can't sleep.

How did everything get so messed up? This was supposed to be one of the best nights of my life.

Spring Awakening tomorrow. So excited. Plus, I need my sister.

AAAAHHHHHHH

Why are all of my ex-boyfriends BATSHIT INSANE? All of them. All 3.

I mean, Aaron...we don't need to go down that road. Keith...that's a road I don't want to go down right now either...Brandon just told me that if he hadn't interned in DC junior year he would have wanted to give things another shot.

Maybe Keith and Brandon should date.

REALLY?

Really? Really?

I've bent backwards for you for five years, and this is what I get?

I can't wait to go home this weekend.